Am I the only one?

Am I the only one?

 

Am I the only one who hates networking? It feels icky and unauthentic. I don’t know how to talk to lawyers. What if they are talking about some case I don’t know about or maybe they are discussing the philosophy of a legal doctrine and I have nothing of substance to say? I don’t know how to be myself around professionals. Do I act formal? I am not a very formal person. Do lawyers even care what a law student thinks? Maybe I am supposed to shut up and listen. I think I will shut up and listen. 

 

Am I the only one who feels like a child as an intern? I am 24 years old but when I am at the office I feel like an annoying child. The attorneys don’t really trust me at first. The clients think I am too young to help them. I am in an office, but I am not a part of the office family. I feel like a guest over-staying my welcome. I ask questions but try not to be too burdensome. I observe and try to figure things out on my own. I never ever complain. I listen and don’t offer my opinions. I feel the weight of being a woman in a male dominated career. I ignore the feeling. 

 

Am I the only one who is afraid that law school won’t teach me how to be a good lawyer? Oh my, I am almost done. When will I feel like an attorney? Is it after I pass the bar? Is that when I will know what the hell I am doing? I think I need another year, or five. Maybe it is like getting thrown in the deep end; sink or swim. I wish my parents could tell me; they usually have all the answers. 

 

Am I the only one?